It seems not too very long ago I was trying most afternoons to get to the school before 2:30 to get the kids in carpool line. It also seemed that just a few short years ago I was chatting it up with my kids and laughing in the living room while we scarfed down some pizza on a Friday night. The house was full of activity and conversation, dogs running around, cats staring us down and the constant flow of visiting boyfriends and girlfriends along with late night chats about the future.
Those days....passed so quickly.
The halls of our home resound with silence.
There were 3 dogs 3 cats and now there are 3, the dog and the two cats that
continue to stare me down as if to ask "What is wrong with you?"
Lord will it ever be ok? Will I ever know the sound of life again in this home we built 25 years ago? Where did everyone go? Do they eat pizza and laugh somewhere else now?
His answer was a simple, loving as the touch of His hand on my heart, "They have not abandoned you, they are doing what you raised them to do. Your children are living life to the fullest, they are experiencing the love of another and my presence in a whole new light. You have your husband who I gave to you 29 years ago along with a mandate to be a blessing to one another and to the world. You my sweet child have never been alone, I am here."
It is just like my precious loving Father to speak truth to me gently but succinctly and then to do what He is so good at.....He gifted me.
Judah Kesler Walter came into the world and changed mine.
My home has a little baby bed for occasional visits, I have a diaper genie(have no idea why, trash can seems to work), and the silence has been replaced with the tender cry of a grandchild, "mah mah mah mah."
I am living life as God has planned. I will not resist, I will comply because He knows best and has made the way. Do not fret over an empty house, embrace the silence and His presence, He always has the plan.
It is today and this "Gamma" is encouraged, I hope you will be too.
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